Friday, September 5, 2008

Sumpahan Seratus Hari

I don’t really know how to put it. This thing had happened to me thrice. It’s not that I believe in superstitious things, just that I want to express my experience of what I call “Sumpahan Seratus Hari”.

The story goes like this:

I was single long after the break up with my ex. More than a year (for me that’s really long!) we had a hard break up. Then I have this friend of friend that suddenly became close to me, and then to cut the story short, we coupled.(?!What kind of story is this???hehehe). After three months, we break up, for some stupid reason which I can’t forgive him, …..just yet.

Then came this other guy. I got to know him from the internet. It was not long after breaking up with the previous guy. Then without knowing why, I went out on a date with this other guy. I’m not sure whether I did this as rebound relationship or not, but not long after that, I really fell for him.

The first two month was great. He was so loving and caring. He calls every night ( He didn’t like sms ‘coz he’s just too lazy to type on the keypad) because we were having a long distance relationship. I was in Perak and he’s at Shah Alam. When the third month came, everything’s changed. I don’t really know what happened, but for sure there were a lot of things in my mind back then.

“Is he bored with me?”

“Could it be that he’s dating other girl?”

“Am I not important to him?”

…because he just ignored me out of his busy-ness. When I wished him our 100th day anniversary, our relationship were already berada di ambang kegoyahan. Not long after that, we broke up.


I stayed single for months…. Then a new guy came along. I resisted at first, you know, I was like….serik??kot… (‘coz I really like the Shah Alam guy even though I was the one who wants to break up). But this new guy, he didn’t give up (like other guys). He was like…

“Ex- ex saya sumenye yang ngorat saya dulu. Awak ni je yang saya kena susah payah tau.”

“Kalau awak tinggal saya, saya mati wak.”

“Saya sayang awak. Saya nak kawen ngan awak soranggg jeeee.”

Dan macam-macam lagilah janji-janji manis yang mencairkan hati saya. Then masuk bulan ketiga, he changed. A lot. He even lied to me, which I found out from friend of friends.

I was so scared. Suddenly I remembered that I have been breaking out with my past boyfriends after our 100th day anniversary. Maybe for some people the anniversary is not important, but for me it is.

During our 100th day anniversary, we were having a big fight. Our last fight. We didn’t even wished to each other. Then cutting the story short again, we broke up. He dumped me actually. Dengan kejam sekali. He said that he has other girlssss… I repeat girls (plural). I was like…. dead(?!).

Ish! Tak mahulah saya ceritakan keadaan saya masa tu. The thing is…. I was really hurt, and I’m still in love with him. I even kept our pictures and videos in my phone until now. Thanks to him, I won’t be able to fall in love again. Is it that I don’t trust men anymore? Hehhe….no lah! I am just…. scared….to face another 100th day anniversary anymore. Kalau tak sebelum hari tu, maka lepas-lepas tu saya musti akan klesh.



comixrelif said...

em..hmm..i've told u this evening how i can sense things have not been well for my friends but i'm just d type who dunno when n how 2 ask...i can listen,though..i'm so sorry if being this kind of friend din help ur broken heart even a bit..hope u'll feel better..

lolita said...

im feeling much better that my friends are all around :P

thanks and i love u all mmuahss

DhiYa' said...

i love u t0ooo..